Those first couple of weeks when I began swimming again after the aquatic center opened up their pools by reservations only were, to say the least, an emotional roller coaster. But, I didn't give up even though the days were hard. I was struggling to - swim. It felt like I had never, ever, been in the pool. Like I had never swam 2 miles straight, regularly. A hundred pounds plus heavier from those days, and I am lugging through the waters.
But, I didn't give up.
I kept showing up.
I was discouraged. It was hard.
Then, it got even harder.
My SI joint and lower back were screaming. I was struggling to walk, sit, and stand.
But, I walked into the water. And, that was the turning point.
At my lowest. In pain. Still swimming. I figured out if I swam slower, gentler I was in dramatically less pain. Then, when I swam slower, I also realized I could swim farther without stopping to catch my breath. Before that day I was struggling to swim 200 straight, without stopping. That day, in pain, I swam 600 yards straight through, plus another 400 stretch.
I had found my groove.
The next day I was in the pool and swam 1000 straight through!
I, finally, could see the light!