
Healthier decisions. Doing the hard thing. That is pretty much life right now. Making healthier decisions means I will be doing the hard thing. Did I want that donut yesterday morning that was offered to me? Yes. Yes. Yes, I did! But, I politely declined. Even after an 'are you sure?' was expressed temptingly, I refused. I made the healthier decision but it was seriously hard because I so wanted a cinnamon wave-y donut. Or, the apple fritter. I did. I wanted a donut and it was hard to refuse. But, I refused and made a hard, yet healthy, decision.
And, that is where life is at for me. I am losing weight slowly because I have made a couple conscious decisions that allow me to do life - happy - rather than restrictive - like eating homemade tacos on Tuesday and eating dessert on date night if I want. But, even those are hard decisions. I had to weigh losing weight fast but living a very restrictive life or losing weight slowly and being considerably happier.
The other healthy decision is continuing physical therapy. Making it happen. It is hard pushing through my therapy sessions. It is even harder to continue those sessions on my off days at home. But, I must do the hard thing to continue to heal my body. And, I am healing. While I'm not there yet I am so far ahead of where I was 4 1/2 months ago I cannot even describe. Except to say I once was without hope but now I have hope.