I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION to let go of seeing myself as a failure in other’s successes. I don’t usually compare, rob myself of joy, but there is a couple of people who have begun a healthy journey around the same time as me - different, but they are seeing more success at weight loss. It is hard not to compare. I have to consider my personal situation against me, alone. It’s freeing.
I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION to rejoice in the successes. I have a hard time doing this because I think if I do, I will see setbacks because I’ve been prideful. It’s a slippery slope and in the mean time, I think I’m hurting, rather than helping, myself.
I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION to abide in my decisions to eat an 85/15 Keto-type lifestyle and that it will simply take longer to lose weight, a long-term lifestyle this way is more doable, and practical for my way of life and how I choose to live, versus a more restrictive ‘diet’, instead, it’s a way of life I can grow with.
I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION to not be sensitive. My emotions are sitting on the cusp of overwhelm, therefore, I am reacting to unintentional words as hurtful, with a raw, scarred wounded heart. Instead, I need to soak up more of Jesus, more of His Word, think on those things that are true and noble and good.
I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION to give the time for some deep work. I have wanted to write a Bible study for so long but the time I would need to work on it is intense. I always think there are other things to do. I just needed permission that even if it is only for me, and maybe my daughter, I need to do this.
I GIVE MYSELF PERMISSION to accept that becoming WHOLE is a work in progress. However, it is progress and it is not perfection. It is becoming more like Christ and not more like me. Because I don’t want to become more like me. I would prefer to become more like Christ and who He meant me to be. Apr ‘19